first revelation

The first revelation comes unexpectedly, in God’s studio, lying on God’s sheepskin rug, a sheepskin rug that God did not purchase but was purchased for God by God’s boyfriend, knowing that God would never purchase it themselves as God at the time did not eat meat and could not abide being complicit in a direct or obvious exchange for flesh or skin. The economy of living bodies. God’s body on God’s no longer living sheep’s body. God’s body’s continued need for protein. God’s inability to become a plantanimal, eating sunlight but still tempted. It is a gesture of kindness. The desire to allow God to circumvent God’s own guilt. The desire for God to yield, to give in to what is God’s. God’s departure and subsequent return to God’s southwestern desert landscape. God’s bottle of wine. God’s board game. God’s late night after God went to sleep and now God is alone, sitting on a sheepskin rug, feeling the immediacy, the immensity of God, covering God’s notebook in God’s scrawls. God’s inability to see in the moment what begins to unfold from within a space that is purely, translucently God’s. God’s space where even God cannot go.